2010

I went home for Christmas and was told by everyone that they were tired of seeing my ugly finger on my blog. I agree! The finger is still not better and I will not put pictures up as they are really gross. I had to have the nail-bed removed. Once the anesthetic wore off it REALLY hurt!!! I was wishing for some intense drugs. I think it is now infected as it’s still red and swollen. So it does hurt to type, but really this no blog thing has gone on long enough. This will be somewhat of a downer—honest blog, but then I’ll post some more about some fun things I did in November and December. ☺

I am very happy to say goodbye to 2010. It was a really hard year for me. I recognize that from the outside looking in it doesn’t look so tough, but for me it was. In fact, I just got enough courage up this morning to weigh myself and found that I have gained 20 pounds (closer to 25) this year. I knew it was bad, but I didn’t realize it was that bad. I think the weight gain has a lot to do with my being unhappy.

In 2010 I changed careers, moved, had a boyfriend, broke up with same boyfriend, started dating a new guy, new guy didn’t work out, realized that I found my job really boring and tedious, hate all the stairs up to my apartment, became completely unsocial because I’m so far away from everyone, got sick for two and a half months, and started to question what I really believe in. I was on some medication that I think caused me to become depressed. I also came to the conclusion that I only have four more year (from this past December) to have children—if I even want children at this point.

So, though 2010 had some really wonderful moments, it kind of went downhill and stayed down there. I’m still processing stuff and figuring out life, but I am no longer on the depressing medication—so I’m no longer depressed and I FINALLY found my motivation to lose weight. I am going to join weight watchers again and get these pounds off of my body. This extra weight makes me not want to be social and it makes me want to emotionally eat. I wasn’t able to go to the gym while I was sick so now I am finally going back which feels great! I just need to start eating within a certain amount of calories and the weight better start pouring off!